So… this impostor syndrome is rising up. 🫤
I’m wondering who it is I think I am to be anyone’s lawyer.
Or how exactly do I think my SMA hands/body are gonna make it through this program.
I’m thinking this is a mistake and maybe I shouldn’t be doing this.
I’m wondering why am I so convinced that I should or could be doing this…
I am hella uncertain about a lot of things.
But what I do know for sure is that I don’t want to keep living the life I’ve lived.
I also know that I am change averse and this is the biggest change I’ve initiated in my life. So I gotta be gentle with myself when it feels overwhelming. And it feels overwhelming.
I know that this time in school is when I should and will get this wrong- and that’s ok. I’m here to learn.
I know that slow and steady is where it’s at.
I also know that since I want change, it involves sacrifice and doing things I’ve never done to get things I’ve never had.
I’m giving this a try and that’s more than ok.
I can’t look at how anyone else is doing or what they’re doing… I just need to follow my professors and do.
I hope I’ll be ok and that I’ll actually feel like a lawyer some day soon.