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Depression

Depression

So... I’m gonna try to write a little bit more here. Mainly for me... but also for yous. Irrelevant things, sad things, thinking things? Only when I can. If it gets too sad, you can duck out - no hard feelings. Holding it in hasn’t helped. Maybe sharing some would be...

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Culinary Horizons

Culinary Horizons

In Other News...Tried to expand my culinary horizons by trying out Great Northern Beans, as Black beans are the *only* beans that my Celiac belly seems to tolerate. I am currently regretting my culinary foray as I look like I’m about 3.5 months pregnant and this...

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Failing

Failing

I feel like I keep failing. Failing at words, failing at art, failing at showing up, failing at doing things right. I feel selfish for always thinking of me and how things affect me. I feel foolish for not thinking of me more, sooner. I feel doomed to not think of me...

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Fire

Fire

The fire always seems to be around the corner. It always seems to be coming; overtaking. It always seems to be the hottest- waiting to burn everything. No matter what, it always seems to just be there. #truestoriesof2021

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A Whole Queen

A Whole Queen

When you don’t look like what you’re going through or what you’ve been through... #truestoriesof2021#MelaninMagic#StillAWholeQueen #thisiphonecameratho #BetterMeForMe #ThisMorningLightTho #nomakeup

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Homegoing

Homegoing

In the things that cannot be said... In all that 2020 took - I pray safe homegoing, strength for your family, courage for your Wife. You were Dad to me for a short time, provided shelter during my times of need, wise words during my hurt- your silent generosity has me...

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Disabled Chronicles, No.8

Disabled Chronicles, No.8

My mind is generally willing - gogogo! Get things done! The cosmos are the limit! Yay all the knowledge! My body? My body has a more practical view of things. Slow and steady, easy does it, maybe not all at once. But it does what it can to keep me here - so I’m...

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Disabled Chronicles, No. 376

Disabled Chronicles, No. 376

My case managers used to ask me every year if I wanted to choose home services - so I can stay in my home or a nursing facility. That question was always absurd to me: why would I leave where I am thriving to go to a place where I am almost sure I would not or at a...

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This time of year is when I work the hardest. It’s the time of year when I am most not OK.This year hasn’t been an exception. There is this visceral grittiness  about this whole year that i haven’t been able to shake. This wholesale callousness that’s saddening....

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Fed Up

Fed Up

You know what I want for the holidays? I want my coloring books to have sales in the hundreds. All of them. Cause I can’t be this talented and still this broke. #FedUp#TrueStoriesOf2020

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Crying

Crying

My Mom used to tell of how she spent the first few years of our lives (my older brother and I) crying. She was devastated that her first two children were born disabled. She would spend that time in supplication, utterly heartbroken between prayers. And then one day...

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Give Up

Give Up

I try to live in a world of possibilities. After my initial run in with a ‘problem’, my mind invariably shifts into what can be a/the ‘solution’. Some solutions are easier or better than others. Sometimes solutions shift over time. Some solutions take a while to make...

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